I'm Sooo Lazy.....

This fasting month has made me evolve into an owl...sleeping for the most part of the morning and only coming out of hibernation only in the afternn...

Spending my night in front of this pc chatting away till its time to sahur...life's good...but i'm sure it could be better...

My blog looks really tired...anyone wanna volunteer to come and make my blog look brand new again? I'm sick and tired of looking at this black blog...i want some colour...maroon perhaps...with the song maroon 5 playing in the backgrd khekhekehkeh....someone HELLLPPPPP!....

I'm so lazy to even update this blog....

One for the road...courtesy of Naser's digicam 

In the merc! 

Grp photo b4 gg to Geylang... 

moi seniors...the past and the present 

cutting the cake! 

These are the pple that i always hang out with in sch! Missing Kak CT oredi! 

Well whaddya know...

I'm not surprised...neither am i shocked...i just feel suddenly serene...so glad that i wont be putting up with this silly little charade anymore...

Suddenly the ocean doesnt seem so big after all...it seems to me that its been reduced into a pond...soon enough it'll diminish into a little puddle...

Get my drift?

See Ya...

Hehehe...I Knew It!




Somewhere deep down i guess i knew! Thanks Fiera for this cute little quiz!

Yes, Im finally @ HOME!

Yahoooo! I've finally come home to the wonderful pc and the endless surfing hours! The exams are finally OVER and im glad that im back home so that i can spend time with family and friends during this wonderful and meaninful month...Ramadhan Mubarak to all concerned and i hope that u make full use of this month to carry out ur acts of worship and good deeds...

I spent a lot of time contemplating on what kind of emotional state i've been in and i am sometimes still hovering in between...I have no idea whether im coming or going, whether i belong or not BUT one thing's for sure, I still feel like im missing out on something really big...

I've been writing this constantly in my written journal...i have this strange niggling feeling that something is amiss...but i have no idea what it is...SAD isnt it? Well i have a whole six weeks to think about it...ponder some more...

This fasting month really has taken off...i've been to the mosque for terawih almost every other night except fri, sat sunday and today...i think that's a pretty good record...hopefully i'll go with Linda tomorrow insyaAllah...not forgetting Azura too...iftar was phenomenal today...i don't think i've bonded faster with any grp of people then the ones i've bonded with currently...afterwards we headed to Geylang and hung out at S11 just like the gd ol' times at OTK in gombak...it was fantastic to be with one another again after being apart...for a few days khekhekheke...cant wait till the next round...

We're online with each other again even after we've jsut met earlier khekehkehe....dah giler sorang2...

Toodles!

Yeay Yeay!!!

2 papers DOWN, 3 more to go....BLUUEEEKKK....

Official Taufik Groupie 

I say...WHO'S GOT TALENT?

Taufik Does!

Lemme Hear Ya Say?!

Taufik Does!

Taufik, Taufik All The Way!!!



You guys better vote him in next week!!! I voted for him thrice! Exercise Your Right To Vote People, dont go on wasting it on some "guys" who dont have any talent at all and cant sing for NUTS! even a monkey's uncle can do better. VOTE FOR TAUFIK!!!! 

im bored okay...bear with me...I'll be gone for a month...miss me a lot k? Muackss to all my darlz!


You are the color red. You are the most
controversial of all the colors. You are often
easily angered, but as easily as you got
excited, you come down. When angered, do you
have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards,
do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe.
But you're incredibly generous, and, odd
enough, needy. You love to hate, and
sometimes, you hate to love. This color
describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad
situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're
in a good situation, you're extremely
optimistic. You're painfully tempermental, and
sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with
an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy
talking to people and being social. But aside
from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're
attention-needing and attention-getting. This
color is associated with lust and desire--and
you are both lust and desirous. You're a
protective person when it comes to the people
you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and
powerful (not to mention intelligent!).


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Updates

I am on hiatus people. Exam, exam exam...2 papers down and still i have 5 more to go...wish me all the best people...

I'll be back after the 23rd of October...
Toodles...

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

Choices, choices and more choices...

You know, when you were a kid your parents usually made the decisions for you...but as we grow older we tend to make our own decisions...

I remember as a kid my parents picked out what to wear, what to eat and which school to attend...even my secondary school was picked by my mom...all i had in mind was my dream school...so i put it at the top of my list and i didnt get in...but i was really glad to be in ahmad ibrahim sec...really, really glad...i made life-long friends there and they are really the people that are the backbone in my life...

So you see...parents decisions arent so bad...after all they have our best interest at heart...but to what extent do we let them make decisions for us?...even after my mom picked out my schools for me...she was kinda mad that i had entered all the schools based on her decision...i on the other hand thought she would be thrilled to see that i wanted to please her...i really didn't know at that point of time whether it was an act of obligation or not...needless to say...even picking out a junior college was based around my parents decision...not that i didn't have the same opinion about the school they had picked out...

Picking the university also involved some views by my parents...and once i didn't get into the universities of choice...THEY sprung into action...they picked out the next best uni for me...at that point i was really undecided...so i just said okay and i filled out those application forms...not once did i think i would make it to that instituition...after being accepted i was really sceptical...was i ever going to fit in?...-the thought of making friends all over again really tormented me-...was i ever going to assimilate into that kind of life?...something that my parents wanted me to be...naturally i rebelled...but that just didnt last long and it really didn't go down well for me...i hated the thought of not being able to please my parents after first announcing that i would reject the university's offer...i really put a lot of thought to it...and after much needling from both my paternal and maternal grandparents including my relatives i decided to leave home to study in KL...

So i am battling with a lot right now...i would say that my routine of travelling back and forth from KL to singapore every weekend is an act of rebellion because i didn't and never really wanted to be there...i guess that's why my mom doesn't really pull my ear about it...but where does this act of decision making stop with parents and their children?...its an age old question...something really to ponder about...im starting to wonder when my parents will stop making the decision for me...i have a feeling it will be the day i get married...only then will they let me make my own decisions...

Even if she does let loose the reins on decision making...i'm going to doubt the kind of decisions i make because my parents have always or most of the time been making the decisions for me...and they have been pretty accurate 90 percent of the time...i don't know whether my position as an eldest daughter and granddaughter (on both sides of the family mind you!) has anything to do about it but i guess it does...it puts that extra pressure on you to perform and set a gd example for your siblings and your younger cousins...i guess thats why my sister doesn't understand...i really envy the kind of freedom and im sometimes proud of her achievements...some stuff i don't get to do (and wouldn't have ever gotten a chance to do) she's already been there and done that...maybe she's young...sure, but really...when you think about it there's always pros and cons...but i would really love to be in her shoes...she's more independant than i am...and that's always something to envy...i on the other hand have dozens of pple watching me and wanting me to do well...so i really can't (and i doubt that i will) ever screw up...

So you see...its really hard to be me....


...i want people to see through my eyes...


This must be one of my more personal entries and i think it's done me a whole world of good...so please if anyone wants to leave a comment please do so...i'd love to hear your thoughts...

Toodles...

Picasa BloggerBot Convert

I have a strange habit of usually wanting to do things the hard way...but eventually i give up and take the easy route...with BloggerBot i actually get to paste the pics the way i want them to be pasted...easy peasy...even for non-techno geeks like me...

Yesterday i typed in an entry for my blog but it mysteriously went missing...wonder where in the WWW it went...-scratches head-...

Yesterday was a painful day...the seat in the bus on thursday evening was really cause to complain about...not to mention my seniors and I got seats right at the back of the bus...it was really bumpy...half the time i thought i was on a horse rather than a bus...the seat reclined alright...but what made it really painful was the fact that the foot rest wasnt able to be pulled up...-faulty or something like that-...so i was sleeping in a sort of precarious manner...i wasnt sitting and neither was i lying down...so u can imagine the pain i was in after i woke up...my hip hurts...-even as i type this-...and its kinda bruised...oh my poor body...

Not only did i have to contend with an aching hip...i had a CRICK in the neck to deal with today...ugh...dumb pillow...

Other than bruised and aching body parts...emotionally i feel kinda low...suddenly i've been thinking a lot about the future...what it could and could not hold for me...its kinda pathetic & sad...i've been feeling lonely...and i seem to be moping...i don't understand why i keep rehashing memories of the past when im actually supposed to throw myself into my books...it only takes a while...everywhere u go...just take a look...a quick 5 sec glance and suddenly its the pits...depressing aint it...

I think i know where the problem stemmed from but i don't know how to stop it...maybe its jsut PMS...but these days i cant seem to get a decent night's rest if i dont have a good cry before that...just like last night...no cry = sleeping at 2 am = crick in the neck...


...can someone please have a heart and get me some anti-depressants...


i need to live normally the next few weeks...gd diet, 8 hrs of sleep and nice sunshine and a gd workout to loosen out the tensions of the day...i need that...after FUTSAL...i promise...

My research beckons...

Toodles

Me and the other cuzzy 

Me & my cuzzy