A is for...


...a lot of words.

A lot of words begin with A.

Apple lah, Apricot, Agar-agar, angst, angau, angry...

Don't make me go on.

Time check is 3.12am in the mrng.

All of you must be wondering why i'm up after a loooonnng day and after watching the Ct Nurhaliza concert.


Sesungguhnya aku pun tak tau.


My brain and heart are not working in sync anymore.

Help!!!!

End note: Seriously!!!?!!!


Fin.

T is For Trouble.


Yes...trouble pple.

Trouble spelt with a capital T.

I smelt trouble since yesterday.

Trouble, in my case can also be spelt with an S or an H.

Depending on which way you look at it.

Either way goes actually.

OMG.

Seriously??!!??

I mean seriously?!

Its been less than 48hours and i've been whipped into a frenzy like this?

I think i've lost my marbles.

Permanently.

Don't mind me.

Just rambling.


Fin.

Being Strong.


Being strong requires a lot of effort.

A lof of effort in NOT breaking into a hysterical fit of sobs.

A lot of effort in NOT letting it (problem) bother you.

And especially a lot of EFFORT to think about other things when something else seems to consume your every being.

Rewind to 9-10 months ago, when i was in my FINAL semester and having to go through my FINAL exams while nursing a break-up.

It was NOT pretty.

*Ask Nora and Kak An (the teary 7am calls, thanks Kak An)*

Plus, it was 3 days prior to my own ASSIIUM Farewell.

It takes a lot to get it together.

Because you are so emotionally and psychologically SPENT.

It was tiring.

So how did I deal with it?

I threw myself into my studies.

*Thats my flight and not fight system taking place*

And the crap questions that you ask yourself POST-break-up....WHY NOW!!!!!??????

It is emotionally demanding.

And it REALLLY tires you out.

But what works is FRIENDS.

Your support system.

Lean on them.

Cry (cos it really does wonders).

Just don't let it consume your whole life.

THAT my friend will then be the death of you.

I know i'm so far from you my dear Suli.

I'm so sorry that i'm not there to keep you company during exams (remember the sleep-overs? "D )

But i know what you're going thru.

Absolutely.

It hurts. Like a Bitch.

But you'll heal.


Fin.


p/s: All of us Love You Suhaili Saad! Gambatte! to ALL the UIA-ians taking exams! We miss YOU!!!! Come home soon!

This song...


This song just evokes in me emotions i thought i had forgotten.

Yes, this song that's been playing incessantly on my Mp3 player, on blog, friendster, facebook, u name it.

Plus last weekend was such a lousy weekend to have PMS.

I was a blubbering mess starting Friday.

It could be because i had this song playing from 9am till 5.30pm

Or it could also be the fact that my ex-bf was at ROMM getting married.

I thought the date would conveniently slip my mind, seeing how busy I've been.

Apparently not.

And apparently i wasn't over him yet.

It still hurts. It stings and it burns.

Wouldn't YOUR ego have gotten hurt if you'd known that your Ex had been planning a wedding 3 mths after you broke up?

I guess its PERMANENTLY over now.

He's someone else's husband.

And i guess we really weren't meant to be.

I was a blubbering mess yesterday too.

I just had to watch P.S. I Love You on DVD....*stupid, stupid!*

And there i was a crying mess in front of the TV.

I hate when i feel like this.

Its almost been a year now.

I've never been good at putting back the pieces.

I'm still learning.


*I just want myself back...*


Fin.

-Holding Back Tears-

Tell me how I`m supposed to breathe with no air?

If I should die before I wake

Because you took my breath away

Losing you is like living in a world without no air, oh

I`m here alone, didn`t wanna leave

My heart won`t move, it`s incomplete

Is there an other way I can make you understand?

(Hook)

But how

Do you expect me, to live alone with just me?

`Cause my world revolves around you

It`s so hard for me to breathe

(Chorus)

Tell me how I`m supposed to breathe with no air?

Can`t live, can`t breathe with no air

That`s how I feel whenever you ain`t there

There`s no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gon` be without me?

If you ain`t here I just can`t breathe

There`s no air, no air

No air air,

No air air

I walked, I ran, I jumped,

I took right off the ground to float to you

There`s no gravity to hold me down, for real

But somehow I`m still alive inside

You took my breath but I survived

I don`t know how but I don`t even care

(Repeat Hook)

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

(Outro)

Got me here out in the water so deep

Tell me how you gon` be here without me?

If you ain`t here I just can`t breathe

There`s no air, no air

No air air,

No air air

Aaaaaaaaaaccckkkk!


I've got like the nicest boss in the whole entire world i think.

Wah Lau.

Do you know what he GAVE me?

Not a pay raise but something quite nice still.

He gifted me with a nice new shiny Philips 1GB "Go Gear" Mp3 player.

*courtesy of T*oyota's launch of the new C*orolla A*ltis.*

But still...it was the THOUGHT that counts!


nampak sangat bende² macam gini diorang dah tak pandang.


I feel so bad.

*oh suck it up...*


Fin.

Pre-planned Vs. Unplanned.


Today was one of the best outings i've had with the AI girlies + Hafiz.

Moments of momentary lapses PLUS spur of the moment activities planned right there and then.

*notice the use of the word "moment" haha*

Ok i did have my reservations when Hafiz suggested we watch "10,000 BC" instead of the originally PLANNED, "August Rush".

But it actually turned out quite okay, especially with Umi around.

The movie ended up being quite entertaining! :D

So thank you, Hafiz.

After that, we were "supposed" to head on elsewhere, just to jalan-jalan but Zak suddenly felt hesitant or malas as she put it. (It was a perfect day for lazing around)

So we went to Starbucks and had our customary drinks and chat session.

After close to an hour, Hafiz started to get antsy and wanted to get out of Yishun.

Which i thoroughly supported.

So we happily made our way to the MRT without any purpose or reason just to "get out" of yishun.

This was sans Umi cos she had a "hot date"(!!!) *with who arh!*

We finally decided to go to the IT fair. Which made all of us happy.

Have you noticed the SEA of people there!

The crowds were MADDENING!

Went around, but only Azimah came out with a shiny new toy!

I-pod Touch liao!

Haha, we all played the EVIL devil's advocate and "co-erced" her into getting it.

It was fun to see her squirm! *insert evil laughter*

Finally after all the pushing, shoving and jostling with the crowds, we left Suntec to have dinner at Lau Pa Sat.

We WALKED all the way.

From suntec, to marina square, to the esplanade, crossing over to Fullerton, ALLLLL the way to Lau Pa Sat.

Needless to say we worked up quite an appetite for dinner. *we walked abt 2km plus, non-stop!*

We had bbq stingray and kangkong belacan and ordered a plate of honey glazed chicken wings which NEVER materialized.

We were sooo pissed.

Eventually we left with an unsated appetite of glazed chicken wings *haha*


And you know...i left out the best for last.


I had always imagined typing out this post (not the parts prior to this bit though)...


You know the movie "10 Things I Hate About You" which is my FAVOURITE movie of all time.

There's this scene where Katarina Stratford (Julia Stiles) grabs this letter from her dad and hastily tears it open and yells:


I got in? I GOT IN!!!!!


Yes i got MY acceptance letter!!!!!

I was happily bouncing around in the living room, to the kitchen to my bedroom!

*good sigh*

Like, FINALLY!

Yes, it was an excruciatingly, more than a month wait for this letter.

And thanks to all those that kept me optimistic and motivated.

Zak, Azimah, Shereen, Umi and Farhan especially.

Not forgetting my Aunt and my Mom for their unwavering support!

Tonight, i'll sleep with a humongous grin on my face!


Fin.

Letting the Pictures Speak For Themselves...

Not exactly the best picture (too over-exposed) but Hey! There are the girls i spent my leap night with!

Feeling "oh-so-kakak²-kerja" with the exception of Shasha.

Waiting for Farhana.

The "bunga-rampai" girls as appointed by orang yg nak nikah Tunang i mean...hehehe

Me and the girlies having a fine time together.



On the way to Huda's...Yes we WALKED people!


Luckily her house wasn't too far away (and I wasn't wearing impractical shoes) and it WASN'T raining.

The gorgeous Cikgu Huda.

From Her to Him.

Final touch-up. *the mak andam was damn bitchy lor! even the photographer was royally PISSED at her!* Lucky the make-up really looked good!

Sexy pout!

Me & the gorgeous Cikgu! I can't imagine how much MORE gorgeous she's going to get when she takes on the dais on her wedding day.

The gang & Huda

Happy to be FINALLY engaged!


Count dem' flowers people...12 in all. Go figure!

Mr. VAIN himself (or should i say, Ustaz) Izhar, A.K.A. Cikgu Huda's Fiance.

Us at it AGAIN!

It was oddly reassuring that i was back in their company.

Going back to familiarity is something that i CHERISH so much!

We regaled with work anecdotes and witty banter...

Not to mention Izhar's bumbling moment as Imam with Ustaz TM Fouzy behind him. *Hahahahahahah*

Nasir with his less than perfect attire (Jubah singkat beb! Kekek!) as Imam or was it? I forget oredy.

And Izhar's first attempt at giving the khutbah at Istiqamah in "bahasa BAKU!"

*lmao!*

Shasha, Dayat (new ASSIIUMer) and myself were not spared from the slip-ups.

Koje (i SWEAR i didn't know Shasha had a N. Sembilan accent) and [h][s] (thats 2 separate phonemes for you) courtesy of Dayat.

Me?

Khutbah became "kutbah" ....

Yes. Go laff silently in the corner...

*slip of the tongue LAH!*

I hope you enjoyed this entry.

Cos i sure enjoyed TYPING IT!

Fin.

Boredom Central.


Ok...today has been a VERY slow day compared to the rest of the week.

And its not even a publishing week.

But the thought of meeting the girls later is really making me excited!

I've brought the camera along, so expect the next entry full of pics...hehe

But i do have to give my due thanks to Izhar, for making our (the gerls) outing possible!

Hahaha.

Tak lama lagi Cikgu Huda and Ustz Izhar will be engaged!

Exciting, no?

But seriously Izhar, what IS with you and older women hahahaha.


InsyaAllah, they will be the next -after a whole slew of other IIUM-ians get hitched- to tie the knot. Amin.


Oh, and i received such a sweet and wonderful surprise this morning.

Greeting me on my table, was a handwritten note by my Director and GM, for doing a swell job so far.

Accompanied by $100 Philips voucher. Alhamdullillah!

Seriously though...i have NO idea WHAT to buy with the voucher.

I guess the voucher will go to "Voucher Queen" Mommy.

Maybe she can get a new cordless phone for use upstairs...just to give you an idea...

"Bring down the phone!!!!" is the wake up alarm whenever anyone (i.e. my sis/bro and myself) brings up the phone and forgets to bring it back downstairs

Which then results in a scramble to answer the phone UPSTAIRS when we can't find the cordless.
Not exactly sotto vocce i tell you.


Oh and the BEST news is...

I'm getting a chance to write for the paper!!!!

Well, product write-ups aren't really MY thing but its a START!

*breathless and starry-eyed*

Now what if i get too attached and can't leave?


Fin.

Skeletons in THEIR Closets...


I'm sure those of you that are 98.7fm fans already know this.

You know, the game that they play every thursday mrng on the D*an and Y*oung show, Tell Me a Secret.

This week, they played this game to pick a winner for the Incubus concert happening next week.

The kinds of salacious and juicy secrets that came out was REALLY astounding.

I mean, cmon pple, are you guys really THAT CHEAP!

One woman confessed on national radio to having a relationship with ANOTHER woman (this woman also has a bf), for the past five years while she was in a relationship with her bf for the past 8 years!

Another person confessed to sleeping with the boss, while in a relationship and called out the wrong name while climaxing.

Well...someone's gonna get fired i tell you.

The most mind-numbing one for me was this Anonymous caller (female) that shared with the entire singapore population listening in to 98.7fm.

She said that she had a baby at 16 and gave up the baby for adoption and now she's engaged and just recently found out that her father ISN'T her biological father.

And so she has to look for her biological father to get married. So now the WHOLE of singapore knows she's malay.

She just dug up so many skeletons. For the whole singapore to know.


D*an and Y*oung, what were you thinking when you came up with this game?


I personally don't find it very nice.

What's the point of something being a secret then?


Mengaibkan diri sendiri as well as other pple.


But then who am i to judge right?

That's just my personal opinion.


Fin.

True Story...


Its been a trying week.

Yes.

With my sales manager behaving like a woman who is menopausal and having PMS.

You know...sometimes i can't tell which is which.

I hate the way he does his work.

All things MUST go his way or else....*you figure out the rest lah*

His way of doing things is like a barging bulldozer.

He never stops to think.

And it annoys the SHIT out of me.

Cos i will have to bear the brunt of it.

Plus to make things worse, the design guy on my editorial team screwed up and put the wrong ad up in the last issue of our paper.

Somehow, i feel like im going to feel the heat later at the meeting.

Even if i didn't screw up.

Haiz.

That's the way it goes.

And its been 3 weeks since the interview and i've yet to hear from them.

I already gave them a call and emailed them to find out the status.

So insyaAllah...really soon.

And now, how's this for laughs.

I went to the toilet to take my ablution for as'r prayers and while i was doing the actions...

I noticed that i had on my slippers but different ones on each foot.

Hahahahaha.

One purple coloured thong and another one black with faux diamond/crystal studs.

What a sight!

Okay...now back to worrying.

Fin.

Out...


For the people that weren't in the know, i have been down with several afflictions.

It all started last Friday.

Migraine. Then fever.

After that, i was pretty much okay over the weekend.

Went karaoke-ing with the AI babes, made a silly fool out of ourselves at CashBox and we definitely entertained our one and only spectator, Hafiz-tunang-kepada-Zakiah.

My Cik Zakiah (the resident che'gu) and Cik Umi (our resident...hheelllooooo Nurse!) even went all out and sang Gurindam Jiwa!


I laffed and laffed till i cried okay.

Even that tickled Hafiz silly.

Okay, sidetracked, sorry.

So after all the fun and merry making, I had to drag myself out of my warm and comfy bed to meet the UIA BARB gerls for Amera's wedding.

That aside, i guess it was all the running around, going to work, tutoring and making plans to meet the girls that really made me tired.

I simply get sick when i DON'T have enough sleep.

So on Monday, things took a turn for the worse.

I already took some medication the night before but i was still sniffling in the morning.

I was sneezing and sniffling in the cold office the whole day.

Yet...i still went to tutor.

After that, needless to say, i was OUT on Tuesday.

I was on MC, lazed at home, eating porridge, sleeping.

Then tutored at night. (I dunno why i torture myself sometimes)

I was only feeling MUCH better yesterday, alhamdullillah....

Only to be blindsided by this pain in my head that just continuously throbbed.

Migraine again...only much worse.

I could feel my neck tensing. Nausea.

Cancelled tuition AGAIN.

*at this point i had already vomited in my mouth a little, which gives you a picture of how bad the pain is*

I called my Dad to get him to pick me up, lest i fall into some ditch on my way out of the office.

Finally after reaching home, at around 7.20pm after picking my mom up, (3 hours of blinding pain in my skull) only did i get to have some migraine medication.

I don't think i should have taken the Synflex...too strong.

But no Ponstan so had to make do with my mother's variety of migraine pills.

*Yes pple, migraine is hereditary!*

I cannot imagine it getting worse.

Cos my mum is currently using Valium to get rid of the very² bad migraines.

*Shudder*

I never really suffered so much from migraines when i was in Uni.

It really began AFTER i left school.

So yes...i've been out...like a light.

Every night before 12 midnight.

*I only work this hard cos i really wanna go for a well-deserved holiday...har-har*


Fin.


P/S: Still no word yet....arrggh! I'm sooooo tired of waiting.

Word on the Street...


The word on the street is that we (well majority of the Singaporean citizens that is) will be getting some cash payout.

Anything to do with money is good with me.

The other word on the street is that there's a particular feeling of lightness *grin* floating in a FEW of us (i.e. Suli & maybe myself "p)

This lightness...caused by some inexplicable feeling that's coursing through OUR *my* veins at least...

Hahahaha....i think i might've started another controversy for Suli...(though NOT TRUE pple!)

I'm just going on a HUNCH here.


And another word on the street is that the gossip just gets better in the millenium.

I'm talking about Gossip Girls people!

I'm already on the 13th episode.

Okay i know most of you might've finished the 2nd season even...gimme a break, i barely even watch tv these days.

But, EVERY episode is the same...

It gets a little boring though at times.

Why? Cos every episode is about SOME party or another.

Like what the sister said: Its superficial.

Very.

No wonder there was a writer's strike.

There isn't much to write about when you're in the States.

Cliche'd yes...

Bordering on boredom.

But i'll keep watching it to *hopefully* retract what i just said.

Till then...


P/S: Still NO WORD YET!!!! aRRRRRGGGHHHHhhhhh!


Fin.

Arrrrrgghhhh!!!!!


They just added a NEW TOUR DATE!

The 27th!!!! Of this mth!!!

At Sunway! KL!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*ok, more like: why NOW!!!!!!*

clearly this is no longer a phase.

Its a love affair!

Who cares now that Kevin isn't around?

I want to see them!

Pleaaasssee!


Fin.

Just Because.


I really wanted to blog this morning.

But i was just sooo damn lazy.

I think its all thanks to the SUPER long CNY hols.

And my company won't be operating tomorrow either! Yahooo!

So its an extra looooonnng break for me!

Will be gg to Chong Pang tomrrow with Umi to make my new glasses.

No, my old glasses aren't broken, i just wanted something more "checher" like.

Haha...

But that doesn't mean that i've gotten "IT" yet hokay?

Wish me luck pple.

Next week.

InsyaAllah.

Anyway...where do I start?

What about the first day of the Lunar New Year?

We had another potluck session, me and the BFFs.

I brought macaroni goreng, umi and azura pitched in with Pizza Hut and Shahidah painstakingly fried chicken and sotong balls *which i REALLY liked*

Then zak and shereen came bearing dessert!

Choc and oatmeal cookies and ice-cream respectively!

I loike!

After the pigging out, we proceeded with the VCD watching.

First it was Romeo&Juliet (the Baz Lurhman version), which we all didn't have the patience for watching.

Then it was 10 Things I Hate About You.

In memoriam of Heath Ledger.

It was sooo sad.

But we soon resumed our giggly session by checking out my Facebook!

Hehehe...

Not yet...i won't say JUST yet.

Its still early days...

Lets just call him Mr. M

*Zak...shush now!* hehehe...

Had breakfast at my aunt's on friday and then spent the rest of the day at home watching mindless tv.

Then on Saturday, i had a DATE!

Yes...with Mr. M.

And noooo he's not imaginary okay. He's for real.

*grins*

We watched "The KiteRunner" and then headed off to Fish & Co. for dinner where we ended up stuffed silly.

Then we just sat under the open skies and talked.

*cue dreamy look on face*

Back to reality now...

The rest of you that are reading this, please i urge you to go watch "Kiterunner".

I was gripped from the beginning.

Thankfully i haven't read the book because i know my expectations will be far higher.

I wanted to cry, but the thought of having my mascara run down my face on a first date really didn't appeal to me.

*i ran out of waterproof mascara unfortunately*

so yes...i had an amazing first date 'cos:


1) there were no expectations whatsoever. (cos i shoved them all right out at the door)

2)we were relaxed and so comfortable with each other

3) and we weren't "malu-malu" with each other, we just said whatever we wanted to say.


So i'm just going with the flow.

Lets just see how this one goes okay.


Fin.

Get Over It...


The grey has lifted and alhamdullillah, the blue skies will reign over insyaAllah.

Its been a tough seven months trying to sever ties with the Ex but now, there is a distraction that will end it.

The distraction has come in the form of _________________


Hahah.

I'm not going to make it THAT easy for u.

When the time is ripe.

In time...all will be revealed.

But what's certain is that 2008 is really shaping up to be one of the most progressive in my life!

Syukur alhamdullillah.

and Mr. M, thanks for your timely appearance.

It has truly been a wonderful week!


Fin.

Due to Popular Demand


Suli, thanks for URGING me to blog again. I might have forgotten how. Hehe. But the absence was 'cos there was so much to say but i didn't noe WHAT to write! Plus, i wanted to divulge some stuff on the blog but for fear that the boss would STUMBLE upon it. So yeah. That's why the lack of updates. But finally, today there's something WORTH blogging about. I've fallen in LOVE with.... FACEBOOK! hehehe... i love the suspense... don't you? *hehehe* lets just say i now have a Rangga also Suli hehehe... and we got to know from Facebook! Credits to Umi (tak sia-sia you look so hawt in Facebook kan!?) hehehe Lets just say: my grey skies have slowly lifted and im SMILING so much that the facial muscles HURT! Thanks girls for the CNY makan-makan. hehe I love you all so much! And the uia babes, weiiiii when are we meeting?!!!?


Fin.

Euphoria!


Alhamdullillah.

2008 is already shaping up to be a really good year for my family.

When the O level results were released, my brother was astounded.

Not only was HE astounded, but us as well!!!

He scored Distinctions for 6 out of his 7 subjects!

*but scored a B for Malay*

Clearly my family doesn't really do well in malay haha.

He was also the TOP malay student in his schoooool!

He scored well over his (and my) predictions.

He scored a freakin' NINE points laaaaaahh!!!!!!!

My brother called me up at work yesterday and said:


"Kakak, I've got my results oredi." *no emotion whatsoever in his voice*

I replied, "So how much did you get?"

"I got 81" he said.

"81??? How come the points like so much like that?" *very blur at this point oredi*

"You square root 81 lah..."

"Badrooooon!!!! You scored 9? You scored 9 points??!!!"

"Yeah" *with a hint of exhilaration in his voice*

"Okay i call u back later arh, i gotta make other important phone calls hehe."


At this point i was pretty much excited and deliriously happy.

It was like i was on a sugar rush!

My sister called me up at work and she was screaming down the phone.

She said that we ought to get my mother to treat us all to Carousel.

Like real only this girl.

Like she's the one that got the good results.

She justified her claim by saying that she provided my bro with emotional support and she should get some credit too.

*Rolls eyes backwards like Norfasarie in Kerana Fateha*

Right now. I'm still euphoric.

*grins*


Fin.

Prayer (Un)Answered?


Perhaps i'm rambling like an incoherent babbling idiot.

But really...yesterday's news just hit me like a brick.

In the face.

To my heart.

I think im beginning to sound like some ingrate.

But at least i'll be able to get to do some fun things in 2008.

June 2008, destination...


New York!!! *humming, New York, New York*


So right now i'll be working hard to raise cash for my trip.

All other trips will now be put on hold.

Apologies to all parties involved.

Hhehehe...im going to the States! Wohoooo!

My 2nd trip to the States in almost 20 years!!

That's a loooonng wait!

*Tapi yang penting dapat gi shoppiiiinnnnnnggg! Naseb baik dah kerja...huhuhu*


Fin.

Surprise(d)!


After doing some serious damage to my bank account last month, I thought i'd be living like a pauper THIS month.

Well...NOT ANYMORE!

I got a nice surprise in my email this evening.

A nice remittance note.

Harhar.

I barely even remembered that i was going to get a 2nd round of payment.

But, oh well.

It was a really nice surprise.

And its not even my birthday :D

Speaking of which...

It is *eeeeekkk!* less than 3 months away.

Can i NOT turn 24?

What can i tell you?

When i was 16, i wanted to be 18.

Then when i turned 18 i wanted to turn 21.

See...some wishes come true :p

Seriously.

Turning 24 is a big deal.

I'm looking back and im trying to figure whether i've accomplished some of my main goals in life.

I remember having lofty aspirations when i was much younger.

Archaeologist, Paleontologist, Egyptologist...

And my closest friends can still attest to you that i have a MAJOR love affair with Egypt.

*so wasn't it nice when i had a crush on the Prince of Egypt aka Boy-who-almost-ran-into-the-dustbin*

*Sigh* some things just come full circle. Hahaha.

Ok, i sidetracked a little.

So when i hit 15-16 i began setting some life goals for myself.

Like...


1) getting into JC to sit for my A's *check!*

2) go to University to obtain my Bachelor's degree. *check!*

3) Get my first REAL job by 23. *check!*


Now that all that stuff is out of the way, im thinking i need some new ones.

Notice how short my resolutions were?

Well, this is one of the real reasons why.

I hadn't thought of anything.

Honest.

I'm one of those freaks that need to plan ahead.

To be prepared for any type of disaster.

Well sometimes.

So when things don't go as planned, i go into major meltdown mode and PANIC!

I think my anxiety level have risen tremendously since i was an undergrad.


So back to the issue at hand.

What goals and plans do i have for the future?

I planned a few but looks like those aren't happening next year.

What is it?

I'd rather not say and humiliate myself.

So i've shelved THAT plan and thought of new ones.

Like, becoming a teacher by 26 (im giving myself a wide berth here).

Obtain my Masters by 28 (or sooner!)*insyaAllah*

Those are one of the biggest goals so far.

*I totally believe in the power of visualisation 'cos it REALLY works!*

But the one that bugs me the most is that i've consistently failed in one department.

And i hate failure like i hate losing.

So on some level im disappointed.

But it gives me a chance to let me improve on myself.

Oh well, im only human after all.


Fin.