Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

Choices, choices and more choices...

You know, when you were a kid your parents usually made the decisions for you...but as we grow older we tend to make our own decisions...

I remember as a kid my parents picked out what to wear, what to eat and which school to attend...even my secondary school was picked by my mom...all i had in mind was my dream school...so i put it at the top of my list and i didnt get in...but i was really glad to be in ahmad ibrahim sec...really, really glad...i made life-long friends there and they are really the people that are the backbone in my life...

So you see...parents decisions arent so bad...after all they have our best interest at heart...but to what extent do we let them make decisions for us?...even after my mom picked out my schools for me...she was kinda mad that i had entered all the schools based on her decision...i on the other hand thought she would be thrilled to see that i wanted to please her...i really didn't know at that point of time whether it was an act of obligation or not...needless to say...even picking out a junior college was based around my parents decision...not that i didn't have the same opinion about the school they had picked out...

Picking the university also involved some views by my parents...and once i didn't get into the universities of choice...THEY sprung into action...they picked out the next best uni for me...at that point i was really undecided...so i just said okay and i filled out those application forms...not once did i think i would make it to that instituition...after being accepted i was really sceptical...was i ever going to fit in?...-the thought of making friends all over again really tormented me-...was i ever going to assimilate into that kind of life?...something that my parents wanted me to be...naturally i rebelled...but that just didnt last long and it really didn't go down well for me...i hated the thought of not being able to please my parents after first announcing that i would reject the university's offer...i really put a lot of thought to it...and after much needling from both my paternal and maternal grandparents including my relatives i decided to leave home to study in KL...

So i am battling with a lot right now...i would say that my routine of travelling back and forth from KL to singapore every weekend is an act of rebellion because i didn't and never really wanted to be there...i guess that's why my mom doesn't really pull my ear about it...but where does this act of decision making stop with parents and their children?...its an age old question...something really to ponder about...im starting to wonder when my parents will stop making the decision for me...i have a feeling it will be the day i get married...only then will they let me make my own decisions...

Even if she does let loose the reins on decision making...i'm going to doubt the kind of decisions i make because my parents have always or most of the time been making the decisions for me...and they have been pretty accurate 90 percent of the time...i don't know whether my position as an eldest daughter and granddaughter (on both sides of the family mind you!) has anything to do about it but i guess it does...it puts that extra pressure on you to perform and set a gd example for your siblings and your younger cousins...i guess thats why my sister doesn't understand...i really envy the kind of freedom and im sometimes proud of her achievements...some stuff i don't get to do (and wouldn't have ever gotten a chance to do) she's already been there and done that...maybe she's young...sure, but really...when you think about it there's always pros and cons...but i would really love to be in her shoes...she's more independant than i am...and that's always something to envy...i on the other hand have dozens of pple watching me and wanting me to do well...so i really can't (and i doubt that i will) ever screw up...

So you see...its really hard to be me....


...i want people to see through my eyes...


This must be one of my more personal entries and i think it's done me a whole world of good...so please if anyone wants to leave a comment please do so...i'd love to hear your thoughts...

Toodles...

Picasa BloggerBot Convert

I have a strange habit of usually wanting to do things the hard way...but eventually i give up and take the easy route...with BloggerBot i actually get to paste the pics the way i want them to be pasted...easy peasy...even for non-techno geeks like me...

Yesterday i typed in an entry for my blog but it mysteriously went missing...wonder where in the WWW it went...-scratches head-...

Yesterday was a painful day...the seat in the bus on thursday evening was really cause to complain about...not to mention my seniors and I got seats right at the back of the bus...it was really bumpy...half the time i thought i was on a horse rather than a bus...the seat reclined alright...but what made it really painful was the fact that the foot rest wasnt able to be pulled up...-faulty or something like that-...so i was sleeping in a sort of precarious manner...i wasnt sitting and neither was i lying down...so u can imagine the pain i was in after i woke up...my hip hurts...-even as i type this-...and its kinda bruised...oh my poor body...

Not only did i have to contend with an aching hip...i had a CRICK in the neck to deal with today...ugh...dumb pillow...

Other than bruised and aching body parts...emotionally i feel kinda low...suddenly i've been thinking a lot about the future...what it could and could not hold for me...its kinda pathetic & sad...i've been feeling lonely...and i seem to be moping...i don't understand why i keep rehashing memories of the past when im actually supposed to throw myself into my books...it only takes a while...everywhere u go...just take a look...a quick 5 sec glance and suddenly its the pits...depressing aint it...

I think i know where the problem stemmed from but i don't know how to stop it...maybe its jsut PMS...but these days i cant seem to get a decent night's rest if i dont have a good cry before that...just like last night...no cry = sleeping at 2 am = crick in the neck...


...can someone please have a heart and get me some anti-depressants...


i need to live normally the next few weeks...gd diet, 8 hrs of sleep and nice sunshine and a gd workout to loosen out the tensions of the day...i need that...after FUTSAL...i promise...

My research beckons...

Toodles

Me and the other cuzzy 

Me & my cuzzy 

my next hp...yeah keep dreaming sista 

Tired, lazy...and so much more...

I've been sooooo out of it lately...i don't even have the time to blog...-not even at school or at home-...exams are around the corner and i'm still bogged down by tests...one more next week...i hope that's the end of it for now till the exams...less than a month to go...haven't got down to serious studying yet...seriously...if not for the Islamic Revealed Knowledge courses that i have to take...i'd be cruising through my course...sadly...its not gonna work out like that for me...

My father told me something that really amused me and surprised me 2 weeks ago...im not gonna tell it here of course...its too private and personal...but i just wanted to get it off my chest...I'm touched that anyone would consider me...but really...i think it's a bit too early to tell...

He's not back from france yet...Oh God...how much longer is it going to get?...Till next weekend i guess...feels like i haven't seen him for months...i really hate this long distance thingy...but some things just come with a price...and this price tag is really pricey...

Futsal tourney between the Indonesian and Singaporean students are coming in a week's time...man i can't even catch a ball for nuts and they put me as the goal keeper...are they joking or what?...i haven't even got a chance to play another position...and goalie isn't even my original position...ah well...something's gotta give...hope im not jinxed and let any balls in...me in front of my own goal mouth i think is a big disaster...-just looking back at previous examples-...not a good sign...gotta do something about it...besides that unsavoury little piece of info...the training's been really good...its a good chance for me to get to know my school mates better and release pent up emotions by sweating it all out...thinking back on it...i really miss my floorball mates...the game...the swiftness of it all and the excitement that grips the whole 20 mins...i need to join back the team...i need to find a team...will Pasirians welcome me?...i really hope so...i want to play again so badly...i'll think about it again...

Bought me new stuff today...heheh...lingerie and a new pair of trackpants that are really fab...miss shopping...wishing i had more dough and more time to shop...lunch with Huda...-at long last-...caught up with her...missed her so much...met sue and jepz...last min thingy and talked technical stuffz...mostly about my old and ailing laptop...finally got the prob solved...thanks sue...

now im tired...gotta look for some notes to the Glass Menagerie...later...

Toodles...

Sweetness...hehehehe 

Here are some images from school...

Here are some pics of me in school...i hope you all enjoy them! They were all recently taken during the 20th Convocation Festival...complete with rides like the tilt-a-whirl and a ferris wheel...

::click here for the photos::

Enjoy!

Toodles...

Finally!

I now have haloscan so whenever flooble goes down there's always this as a backup...i look forward to your comments...hope to see you guys soon!...

New look too...i've changed the add to this one cos i've been geting many complaints about pop-ups...so to prevent this i've changed the add...sorry for the inconvenience guys...

Toodles

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Sucky Week Anyone?

So i saved the worst story for almost the end of the week...what happened?...well...

So i set of for Larkin alone on Sunday night since the usual people that i go home with weren't gg back with me that night (they decided to skip their monday classes and leave on tuesday night)...so i went to the bus stop where i thought the service 856 was supposed to be...sadly...NOT...

Already late and so all alone...i kinda waited and waited at the darned bus stop...wondering why the bus hadn't arrived yet...i went to look at the pole where they have all the bus services listed ...alas...i was so mistaken...i suddenly remembered that the service 856 didn't stop there at all!!!....ACCCCCKKKK!...the bus that i took the previous week was 965 (which i kept thinkg that it was 856)...deluded and already pissed at my stupidity...i waited yet again for the feeder service to bring me to the correct bus stop...BUT...it didnt stop there...the nightmare still continued...

After getting onto 856 and gg thru the route into Senoko where there were many foreign construction workers...the bus then made its way into the woodlands heartlands...thinking that the service was a loop service to the woodlands checkpoint...i merrily continued my solitary journey until...i realised that the friggin' bus went all the way to the regional interchange...amazed at my stupidity (yet again) i finally got down at marsiling mrt stn to board the last -phew- west bound train towards kranji...my plan of not to take the bus frm kranji failed as i ended up taking the bus frm there anyway...

The bus didn't make its usual quick getaway frm the wdlds checkpoint....instead it dallied for about 10 mins which really irked my patience...already SOOOOO miserably late...i kept wishing, hoping and praying that the bus would make its move...finally...it did...

I was soooooo angry at myself...thinkning i could save a few dollars from riding on the public transportation...i ended up spending more...

Please remind me that 856 does not stop in front of the mosque in Yishun...dumbass...

After a week without seeing my roomie Tj...im kinda cranky...miss her dearly...and to top it all off...Shafiq's away in France again...for 2 weeks...i miss him badly...


Come back soon & safely...Missing you lots...


Can it get any worse???

Toodles