Date Due: 28th November 2004

There are exactly 2 more days until the expiry date...and then its back to campus...what a drag...i have so many things to do...and i still havent got packing...and i have a course to go to this weekend...which ends at 6pm on both days...

Lemme gripe...its my license to since its MY blog...No Singapore Idol finale for me...not catching up with my gal pal who's jetting off to India early next month...why is this all happening at the beginning of my semester???

I was just getting into the swing of Raya! Not fair!

I have certain commitments i've made that i'd not like to go to...but it wouldnt be nice if i don't go...but if i go i'll be so out of place...what a bummer...See its hard being me...

I'm starting to miss everyone already...dammit...can i pretend none of this is happening and not go back to campus??? I don't think so...

But on a brighter note: I passed my EXAMS! Yipeee!!!! *doing imaginary cartwheels in my mind*


Here's a note to all my friends:


Zak>> I lurve your diamond ring! Its fab! Lucky you!

Azimah>> Congrats! Hope you guys are gonna be happy...i doakan utk kebahagiaan korang...Amin

Marliana & Shereen>> Au revoir and Bon Voyage to the both of you...may you both reach your destinations safely

Huda>>I wish you all the best with him...hope the fireworks last a long time! Hehehe

Momma>> I hope you find out who the mystery person is

Kak Norah>> Thanks for all the well wishes

Su>> Thanks for cmg to my house the other day and letting me go over to your house

Kak Doink>> Thanks for inviting us over to your house the other day...i truly enjoyed the makan!


To all others that i have missed out...sorry and i wish you all the best in the cmg year...thanks for being my friend and readg my blog...Enjoy your holidays guys...(while i slave away in school)

Fading into oblivion

Taufik, Taufik, Taufik

Did i mention that TAUFIK made it to the first ever Singapore Idol finalssss! Yessssss! Wahoooooooooooo!

Jalan raya ngan ASSIUM memenatkan...tapi suatu memori yg amat menceriakan


Lookie what we have here???




All for one and one for all?


Wanna see more?

Its already the 4th day of raya and i still havent worn these pair of absolutely stunning pair of shoes...courtesy of MakLang nonetheless

1st Syawal

The first day went off without a hitch i should say...lucky for my whole family that my grandparents decided to come to singapore and spend eid with us...if not, this eid would be a dead one...

Woke up real early even after a late night...-khekhekhe...spent the night chatting after doing the cleanup-...so i did ironing, cleaned the toilet AGAIN...took my shower and finally got dressed and helped my mom in the kitchen...it felt weird you know...spending eid without my father...it felt like having an arm ripped off from your torso...i miss him real badly...last i heard they might not come back this thursday but this coming sunday instead!!! Noooooooo!!!!

Anyways...we all did the traditional salam and seeking forgiveness from our elders...i think i cried buckets...especially when i did it with my mom...luckily no one took my pic...nanti tak glam langsung...makeup pretty much got ruined -har har-...but still, it was a great day...

The food??? Well wat can i say? It was phenomenal...kenyang giler dibuatnyer...there was lontong, ketupat, rendang, sambal udang, ayam masak merah, sambal kacang, sambal goreng (Nyai Endon style) fuhyooooo...takleh angkatz...we'll be getting more of that sambal goreng this thurs and i cant wait!!! Yum-yum...

Besides my close relatives coming over, there were only 2 other grps of pple that came to my house which made the whole day quite a quiet affair...since the dad's away with his parents...we didnt get to go to my paternal grandparents house...not to mention my dad is the only one who drives and my mom didnt want to go out...so we were stuck at home the whole day...no surprise there...So i'll only be going out this thursday with the Uni peeps! Gosh i cant wait...the perks of staying in a small country! We're gonna visit quite a few pple so we hired the bus and the works...everyone's gonna be dressed to the nines! And needless to say I'm gonna be taking the digicam with me so you can all expect some really good pics!

And pls Izzy...dont drop the cam again k? Or else i'll make you crawl on yor hands and knees to retrieve it! khekhekehke...cya thursday k?


Fading into oblivion

This is one of the pics that made it...the rest were like CRAP...more to come for sure! Hhehehe...
The pic's a bit screwed cos my cuz stood up and spoiled the whole pic and there were like only 4 of us who were looking at the camera...i'll have to claim the rest of the pics frm my aunts later on...ciao!

Happy Eidul Fitr




Have a happy hari raya to those celebrating it and a happy holidays to those who arent! Muacks...Enjoy guys!

The Last Iftar Outing wif peeps frm Uni


The tired and sleepy faces of the night



The boys looking a bit stoned...



Geylang in all its splendour...too bad my eyes were shut :( Not to mention that the light behind us was glaring way too much...



The Ride Home

Aaaaccckkkk!!!!!

I think he knows! Whats worse? Him knowing or him not knowing? Definitely the former! AAAAARRRGGGHHHHH


Lemme go & crawl back into my shell again...leave me alone for a while k?


Fading into oblivion

Invisible

How would it feel if you were standing right there in front of this person yet they never noticed you? Sad right? Well maybe they noticed you but they never think twice about you...they'll just treat you like a friend...

Its so hard to put up that facade of being that brave and strong girl all the time...when you're hurting deep down and the scars that have not yet healed keep getting salt into them...its absolute torture to have to face people everyday and pretend everything is normal...its not...the way we have to deal with it as individuals differ so sometimes i might not want to talk about it to you...i wanna go someplace where i can be alone...where i can find some peace in solitude...

But you're always there...i just don't know how to break it to you...

Im just standing there and you're looking right through me...just like the others before you have done...so i go on with my daily routine...hoping that one day...just one day that i wont be that invisible girl...

This bleeding heart...it still pines...it pines for something that i can only imagine...something that keeps slipping thru my fingers...once, i felt close to getting my cake and eating it...but somewhere down the line i started being disillusioned...

I'll feel sad at times but then i'll start to rage within...it feels like the embers are still smouldering...it continues to burn until i find something to quench its thirst...

I don't want to be invisible anymore...


Fading away....

Happy Days...

I've been getting together with many friends this past Ramadhan...i now really understand the true and powerful meaning of friendships...whether through my ups and downs...u're always there...

Zak's mini-bitch fit (as she puts it) wasn't so much of a bitch fit...kehkehkeh...just a lot of hyperventilating and explaining to one BLUR sotong like me...lucky gurl...-the ring, the guy and the friend (ME of course)-...May Allah bless you always, Amin...I feel so bad for putting her on the spot the other day...khekhekhe...i on the other hand was enjoying myself...for certain reasons...-which shall not be disclosed-...Geylang was packed...then again when has it not ever been packed during this month?

I also didnt realise that i had quite a fan base khekehkeh....thanks Azura...if it wasn't for you i wouldnt...no, WE wouldnt have known...

I now have MSN nights...khekehkhe...sleepless nights due to chatting...and chatting with the same old people...who i enjoy talking to BTW...thank you to whoever created msn messenger...i love you loads...now i can have my bitching sessions online...i am gonna miss chatting when i get back to campus...wish they would just hook up the whole campus and make it wireless...yeah right...in a million years...

5 more days to Eid...i didnt even see that cmg...where did all the time go???...i still want my baju kurung...shoes...bag...scarf...i have no matching scarf...this is sooooo hard...daddy's away...i don't feel like celebrating Eid...lets just get it over with and get back to school...wat does the next semester hold in store for me? Zak stop laughing and giggling...i can practically envision you doing it...Wish me luck!


Cya

Let it be known that i am the first person to get him to smile in pics! Success! See Izzy U look photogenic when u smile!

..::Rant&Rave:Pre-Islamic Days::..

Those days were filled with plenty of idolatry and weak pple...idol worshippers of pagan Arabia...i suddenly feel like im suddenly being pulled back into those pagan times...its not the idol worshipping but its the kind of values and morals that we display inthis day and age...i truly feel like we have regressed...

Its sad to see how some people do not know how to value and appreciate this Holy month of Ramadhan...they dont even know how to revere this month...these people are flaunting & displaying their acts of rebellion agst God...are they insane? Eating and drinking -@ a coffeeshop no less!!!- Have they NO SHAME?????

Full-grown adults who don't understand the meaning of fasting...the only time where one can be cleansed of sin and there they are creating more sins...even my brother -my youngest brother at 6yrs old- is fasting...what of these men? Here i am fretting over the fact that I cant perform my fasting and these men are jolly well eating & drinking...

I don't know what kind of society im living in these days...for every 10 pple trying to save Islam, there is one black sheep that brings them all down...wat a waste of efforts...


i hope tht my father's prayers will be answered...InsyaAllah...missing daddy badly...

$%^&*^%$#@!eeeeeerrrrrrrgggghhhh)(&^%^$%#$##@#!!!

Wat is up with everyone trying to tell me: "He's a good guy...you should go for him"

I think i just had about enuff...the gd guys are:

1)taken

2)gay

3)not interested

4)or someone whom you're just platonic friends with

If memory serves me right...a lot of the guys that i like are just my friends and thats where it ends...Right there...so pls stop asking...i beg of you...no more...

The failures speak louder than the successes...

Wait...were there any successes at all??? I'll ponder that one for a while...


Cya