Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Invisible

How would it feel if you were standing right there in front of this person yet they never noticed you? Sad right? Well maybe they noticed you but they never think twice about you...they'll just treat you like a friend...

Its so hard to put up that facade of being that brave and strong girl all the time...when you're hurting deep down and the scars that have not yet healed keep getting salt into them...its absolute torture to have to face people everyday and pretend everything is normal...its not...the way we have to deal with it as individuals differ so sometimes i might not want to talk about it to you...i wanna go someplace where i can be alone...where i can find some peace in solitude...

But you're always there...i just don't know how to break it to you...

Im just standing there and you're looking right through me...just like the others before you have done...so i go on with my daily routine...hoping that one day...just one day that i wont be that invisible girl...

This bleeding heart...it still pines...it pines for something that i can only imagine...something that keeps slipping thru my fingers...once, i felt close to getting my cake and eating it...but somewhere down the line i started being disillusioned...

I'll feel sad at times but then i'll start to rage within...it feels like the embers are still smouldering...it continues to burn until i find something to quench its thirst...

I don't want to be invisible anymore...


Fading away....