I just typed out a whole entry -and subsequently erased it-
Re-read it and it answers my own question.
Yes i think im being too demanding and selfish.
I hate me for being this way.
I don't like who i've become.
I'm just trying to come to terms with that piece of news that you handed me.
p/s: I don't know how to tell my parents. I feel like such a disappointment. I failed. Again.