Where Did I Go Wrong???

It's been a pent up...frustrating...tiring week...for many people...i sympathise with all of you...it will be all over by then end of next week...then all of you can relax and worry about your mid-terms...what am i talking about?...its Ummatic Week 2004 where we all unite beyond borders...simply put...most of the countries take part in displaying their cultures & putting up performances for all the other brothers and sisters of Islam...its gonna be a great week...but tiring...

Pertaining to the strange title that i've posted up...well...i've kinda been seeing someone...i keep denying that we've been going out for a while now...and please dont pry me for details...i'm not going to answer...he's been great to me...BUT somehow or rather i keep pushing it away...-why?-...you must all think i'm crazy...but  i do have my reasons...i think its that nasty breakup that i had...all the tumultuous emotions that ran through my being...damn it hurt...i think what im doing now is not trying to get hurt...understandable enough...but after yesterday...God...yesterday was unbelievable...

He was so nice to me even after i kicked up a big ruckus...we stayed silent in the car for ages...me...-knowing how big our egos were-...made the first move to break the ice...i took his hand and looked at him and said SORRY...it was so hard for me to do...but what i did probably showed him that i'm not a child...im a full fleged woman now...able to say Sorry...boy...my ego sure fell down the steps...so we kissed and made up...-not literally of course-...and all went well...he looked even more dashing yesterday with his glasses...he doesnt even need them...but boy he looked SOOOO yummy in them...looking so intellectual and HOT...-me and my twisted taste in men-...

Haiz...and the situation on my crush...well...it started to turn out very sec sch like...-some readers will understand what this means-...so i've saved myself the disappointment and told myself to just forget about it...but its not stopping me from admiring him from afar...making him jealous...-winks-...nasty me huh...what have i done?...lemme tell you...i kinda told a few people there's this really cute african-american guy in my school that he is HOT!...ps: there REALLY is this hot african-american dude in my school! No joke!...so word got round to my crush...wahakz...i know this sounds all juvenile...but hey...im just trying to get some kind of response from him...khekehkehe...notty notty me...

I'm sorry to have disappointed my readers for the past 2 weeks...i've been too busy and unfortunately Phlogger doesn't seem to work for from overseas...or maybe its just my hp no. ...anyways...i hope i'll be able to blog with some regularity next week...but keep holding you breath cos i'm gonna be busy with my own mid-terms too...so you know the deal...you guys with blogs just keep writing...and posting comments on my shout-box k?...muackz...love you all loads...

Toodles

I'm Baaaaacccckkkkk!!!

Heya peeps...i know i havent been blogging for a VERY, VERY long time...but all in good reason...lemme spin ma tale...

Well then...if you havent already known...i went down with fever...and it wasnt an any 'ol how fever...it was dengue fever...so i was out sick for a few days...leading to my lack of blog posts for the past week...lots of well wishes...and get well soon's & here i am again...on the road to recovery...to all that sent me their well wishes...lots of love to you guys...im back on track again...

So...last week i missed like tons of classes...covered by MC of course...last week was not a good week for me at all...i lost one of my txts for class and that book is blardy expensive i tell you!...I've missed class...well not all...kehkekehke...

While back in singapore this weekend...i spent most of it at home no less and with my family of course...but i did spend one day with Thub...-again-...this time with a nice surprise...Lis of course...she looks good...(if u read this Lis: yeah man we're so happy these days aren't we?)...took pics on her new camera...lovely...lots of good pics...-will soon be up-...laughed lots with Thub and Lis...could hardly stop...me in my new grey contacts...-so vain so vain-...but i must say...i look good...the three of us looked good...singlehood never looked so good...-laughs heartily-...

I am writing this in my drama class...wtf...-pay attention!-...but i have to write now...or i won't write the next time...bear with me and my train of thoughts...

Ah yes...crush update...the more i think of it...the more ridiculous it seems...due to the nature of our lives...we are never, ever, ever gonna have the smidgen of a chance of being together...we are from 2 very separate lives...2 people from different worlds and universes...so for now...i'll just look & admire the pretty sights that i have to see...

Till the next time...i cant concentrate writing this now...toodles...

-update:PrInCe ChArMiNg LoSt HiS wAy-...

 

Burnout #1 of the year

As usual...got back on thursday....this time with a nasty fever...listlessness just came and left me...irritated the hell out of me...finally told one of my seniors who my crush was...-grinning & blushing furiously-...its so hard to have a crush like this...the unattainable ones...2 different worlds apart...its never gonna happen anyway...(there's a reason that its called a crush)...

Yeah...so reached wdlds at abt. 10.45pm...got a lift from a senior to wait for Im at the pre-arranged place...made someone jealous...khekhekhekehkeh...never thought i was capable....well then...we'll see how it goes then tonight...so Im sent me back home...thank Allah for gd friends to rely on...i dont think i could have gotten home in one piece if i went back alone...

Reached home...swathed myself in sweater...socks and covered myself in my duvet...still shivering like it was 10 deg. below zero...woke up the following mrng(Friday) and convinced myself tht i was better so i cld go watch spiderman 2 wif Im since i promised him like weeks before...had dinner then chilled later in the evening in a park just talking abt life in general...haiz...how depressing...no more...moving on now...

Saturday...tuition...what's new...hmmm...had dinner @ delifrance alone...watching the people pass me by...nice alone time...didnt enjoy myself though...was hard to enjoy my food since my palate was messed up...(no thanks to the fever)...went to Shereen's to pick up the indemnity forms fo the Urban Quest adventure race...surfed the net @ her place to look up some maps of the cbd area...no luck...made my way home...

Sunday...big day...tiring...aching all over now...10 checkpoints with only 6 checkpoints that we accomplished...apparently they don't know where the cbd area was cos most of the race was held in the Plaza Singapura & Fort Canning Area...CBD my foot!...we had loads of fun...lucky we had Im on our team...we wld have been dead ducks if we didn't get him on board our crew...entertaining and bubbly...Umi calls him an irritant...wahakz...no prizes won...no worries...plenty of pics taken...will not bother to talk about the disastrous dinner at Cahaya...BAD & SLOW service today...45 min wait...-bubbling in anger-...made it back home...all achy...tired & really sleepy...im gonna sleep well on the bus back to KL tonight...cya...

Toodles...

tO tIrEd To ChAsE mY PrInCe ChArMiNg...

Crush Alert

Maybe! This guy may have a crush on you; its hard
to tell though. One minute it really seems like
he does and the next its a whole different
story. If you have a crush on him, why dont you
try talking to him and getting to know him
better if all goes well you two will form a
friendship, and who knows where things could go
from there!?! If you are already friends with
the guy you should tell him how you feel,
however before you do that you need to decide
whats more important to you, a friendship with
this guy or a relationship. Sometimes when you
take a friendship to the next level things
between you two are never the same again, but
if you have one of those friendships that
survive though anything then go for it!


Does He Like You?
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Ahakz...this guy is playing the merry-go-round with me...

Lunch Update

Wore pink to class today...very striking pink with a matching striking new pink scarf...Su has seen it...kehkehkeh...everybody's jaw dropped when they saw me in pink...[heard]:alahai ayu nyer kau niari...teserlah kepompuanan kau niari [end]...i think i made an impression...i guess to the right people...;)...i saw him...-sighs dreamily AGAIN-...he tried hard not to look...i think...maybe wishful thinking...i think im going crazy...i need therapy...HELP...

fyi peeps: this is a true blue certified nice guy AND he's NOT from anakmelayu.com....that's the only clue i can afford to give you...till next time...

counting the moments till i see him again...

Toodles...

Back By Popular Demand

Yes...thanks for the little reminder to update my blog Kak Doink...guess my life isn't as boring as i thought it was...

Just wanna let you guys know i have a crush...kehkehkeh...on a guy friend (cant tell you where he's from cos i know some people might be reading this & might just tell him) ...-mortified-...he's what me and my rmmate call the perfect guy...-sighs dreamily-...he's tall...dark...and handsome...and religious (for real this time Momma, no more Wakrak)...he's sweet and really nice...sometimes i think too nice for my tastes...

My best friend told me something that just dawned upon me...all my ex-boyfriends are CRAP...she told me..."You know, you should go tell this guy you like him since you guys have known each other for so long" (10 mths plus)...we've had conversations that were deep...some secrets we've told each other...haiz...

Problem is...im scared shitless...id like to get to know him better...he's funny, he's cute, he's sporty...i could go on and on...but i'd like to look for his flaws...since he's so perfect and all...right now...i don't know what i think...but i know i really like this guy...i just don't want it to be a one way thing you know...for those who known me since sec. sch. i bet you know who im talking about...yes, 'the-one-that-got-away'...just don't blab it on my tag board...

I haven't had a crush this bad since sec sch...

So...are we looking at repeat telecast???...we'll see...like one of my other friends said...go with the flow and get to know him better...who knows...something other than friendship will blossom...

So..till this weekend...

Toodles...

Weekend Mania

I had the most interesting weekend of all weekends...it started off fast and furious and it didn't lose steam all through the week...

First...thursday night...even before i could open the door to my house, Imran gave me a call...God pls gimme a break...my own problems i haven't solved and u ask me to help solve other people's problems???...anyway...after our long drawn out conversation, about 15 mins after i got off the phone with him...my sister's ex boyfriend called...and i didn't get to sleep till 3am the following morning!...

Friday started off slow with you-know-who cancelling our date for the day and postponing it to Saturday and then later in the evening my sis came home all flustered cos she said her ex-boyfriend came to school and they had a humongous argument...she let off a lot of steam and there i was just listening to other people's problems again...AND THEN at night...my best friend called me and confided in me HER boy problems...AND IT STILL DIDN'T STOP THERE!!!...Im called me yet again...so i listened...Muizz's explanation for the influx in people asking me to listen is cos i'm so approachable...any tips for reversing the process?...

On Saturday...went out with you know who...spent some time with him...then dropped me off at Tampines...a cleaning lady alerted me that my skirt had a tear...-mortified-...went to the toilet to turn the skirt around so tht it didn't look so obvious...went to THIS FASHION to get me a new skirt...(its a bit of a moss green and an army green)...went to tuition after that...now you have to listen to this...the kids came back after their break with slurpees (yes every one of them)...one laughed so hard till he puked the thing back out...at the end of the class while my colleague was trying to explain a qn to this new kid...water started to trickle down his pants and then slowly picked up speed till it almost gushed...-chuckles & chortles-...wanted to laugh but tht wld be most unapropriate...poor boy...he didn't even tell either one of us that he wanted to use the toilet...night came and went...Im called me (yes, he called me again,i have no idea what his problem is but apparently he loves to bother me)...so another late night...

This night ended longer than usual...had a chat with my crush on msn...-sighing dreamily-...we had the most interesting conversation...very deep topics...wont go into detail and bore you...don't see the light coming at the end of the tunnel anymore now...had a loooonnnnggg chat with my lady Linda NJ...hope she has a good umrah...-wishing her well-...missing her already...

Sunday...went to Majid Mydin for my first class with Ustz Farrurazi...interesting speaker...has a lot of charisma...gd orator...love his style...looking forward to go for more of his Sunday classes...went with Waa...thank God for good company...after 2 long hours of sitting in the heat and ending up with cramped legs...we headed off for lunch...S11 Haig Road...-licks lips-...Su rang...asked if we were done with class...after impromptu decision making...she decided to join us...went to Geylang and shopped...3 new scarves...green, black, and pink...-gasps-...new pins...went to Waa's...got the cardigans...baby blue & purple...love the purple...finally Shereen called and told me all about the challenge thing @ the CBD area...registration hiccups...hope we can solve them...Im called...AGAIN!!!...before i boarded the bus frm Kranji...nice chap he is...finally...left for Larkin (JB)...tired, exhausted & ready to fall asleep...

I think this is my longest entry ever...dunno whether im proud of it like Momma is...-khekehkehkehe-...till the next free time i get to update my blog...

Toodles