Kun Fayakun.


Y'day was marked as a first for me.

Personally, i felt that i stepped out of my comfort zone for a while.

I dunno, it just feels different than what im normally used to.

I'm sure you must be wondering what the hell i'm talking about.

Its got something to do with the title.

But i can't let out too much cos there may be pple secretly reading this.

But i can tell you one thing, i thought that there was PLENTY of eye-candy.

Hahah.

That is so Maryam.

And then last night azimah kept me up on the phone.

I was half-asleep in my darkened bedroom speaking to azimah. That was also a first for me.

Well, whatever you decide dear, you noe i have your back.

Gd luck with the istikharah.


Fin.

Profusely.


Its been a long time since i've fallen sick.

I think my body's trying to tell me to take a break.

Which i will.

Some time in December that is.

2007, end sooner please.

Why? Cos so far, 2007 sucks.

Convocation not withstanding.


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–adjective
1.
spending or giving freely and in large amount, often to excess; extravagant (often fol. by in): profuse praise.
2.
made or done freely and abundantly: profuse apologies.
3.
abundant; in great amount.


In my case, its my snot, or rather, water that seems to be running like a tap to no end.

My eyes are also watery.

My head is heavy and i just want to sleep it off.

I was roused at 2.30am this morning by my sister's sewing.

And thus after that, i couldn't go back to sleep.

And my face, especially under my eyes have been puffy.

*muka aku macam retain water*

Not a pretty sight.

5.30pm....come sooner!


Fin.

Pardon Me.


Pardon me for the lack of updates.

I have been f***ing knackered beyond belief.

Ooops. Excuse my french.

I've been temping at ITE HQ at Dover.

So that means that i have to get up even earlier and travel all the way to the West side of the island.

And i hate to say this but i am your typical kiasu Singaporean.

I will practically RUN for an empty seat.

Cmon. If you had to travel from yishun to jurong east interchange WOULD you stand?

And my bedtime has consistently gotten earlier and earlier.

And sometimes i feel like there are heavy weights on my eyes when im in the office.

What with the airconditioning at a very nice and comfortable setting which is VERY conducive for sleeping.

So yes.

I will make rare appeareances on this very dusty blog until the next month.

So toodles now cos the bed is calling.


Fin.


p.s.: i passed my ept!

I Hate That I STILL Love You.


With all the developments that have been going on,

*plus the Raya madness that is still going strong*

it comes as no surprise that i havent had time to blog.

side-track:Rihanna and Ne-Yo's song have been playing incessantly in my head and its disturbing how much this song affects me.


Besides the loss of one of my main income sources come this november and december, i have been scouring all over for something to tide me over.

Alhamdullillah, He has answered my prayers.

This year...wow...so many surprises and changes.

Changes that im still trying to adjust to.

Aaaarrgghhhh..there are days that i would just love to scream my head off in agony.

I am frustrated at some level but somehow strangely settled.

Forgive me for being so vague.

I am tired from all the Raya-ing.

And i have been unwillingly volunteered for my mom's perjumpaan raya RGS and RI.

And then another perjumpaan raya under ASSIIUM.

The madness.

To all frens in UIA still having exams : ALL THE BEST!

Now let me continue wallowing in my misery.


Fin.


p/s: Nora, i'll do the thing soon yah. sorry lah...no mood lah.

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Like some i'm unhappy.

Why?

Cos i JUST realised like a few minutes ago that my pic that was taken at my grandparents place did not have ME in it!

Boooooo hooooo...

And now i have NO gambar raya of that particular baju.

Darn.

Haiyohhhh...so suay.

Anyway, i think its fitting that this is the 4ooth post.

Cos i just want to say that I, Maryam Mohammad Sesth, had to take the EPT (that is the english proficiency test for those of you not in the know) today.

Yes, Maryam Mohammad Sesth, the English Graduate, had to sit for the NIE/NTU EPT in order to be considered for a teaching post.

Go figure!

So yes, i came back at around 4.30pm after sitting for a whole day of testing.

ORAL & WRITTEN paper.

*it really does insult my intelligence to be treated this way...hmmmpppfff*

But anyway, i had a bit of a leg up on the listening comprehension section.

It was a passage about "Introduction To Language".

Hohohoho...and truly enough i could answer one question without even listening to the passage.

So that means out of a hundred questions, im guaranteed ONE correct answer.

Hahah.

Honestly, i'm like dead tired!

I have been baking biscuits and cookies and i smell like cookie dough.

I've also been busy baking cakes (where i still gladly accept orders, SGD25 for a 1-1.5kg moist choc cake).

One truly satisfied customer is Nurul Khasanah Binte Agost.

Pls ask her if u are not convinced heheh.

So besides smelling like cake mixture and cookie dough, i also smell of paint fumes.

Yeah i FINALLY managed to finish off the last few bits on the wall, those tricky corners. And mind you, i had to do it ALONE.

Yes, i have been a one man show for the past few months. Especially during THIS particular Ramadhan.

Alhamdullillah, our family did not miss a single sahur session. Amin.

So now i want to wish all my Muslim friends in singapore and abroad a very merry Eid.

Eid Mubarak to all of you.

If i have in any way hurt your feelings or have been harsh and rude towards you, please forgive me. For I am only a human being. With that said:


To Err is Human, To Forgive; Divine.


Fin.

Hahahaha!


You guys should check this out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d12q_60SkL0


Stupidly funny.

Hahahaha...

Enjoy the rest of your week!

Fin.

Disconsolately Yours.


Its been a rough couple of weeks.

Especially with my sleeping patterns so out of whack these days.

At this moment, ive practically reached my breaking point.

With my student driving me up the wall with her lack of focus and drive.

And i'm the one who's nervous cos she's going to be sitting for her PSLE's next week.

Oh God. Pls help her. She really needs some divine intervention at this point of time.

'Cos i obviously can't make miracles.

On other fronts, well...lets just say i'm a bit upset with things.

It doesn't matter that i've even got an honours degree.

Cos it just doesn't cut it for them.

But my spirit is definitely not broken. I will continue trying.

I will DIE trying.

Cos at this stage, really, i literally have nothing to lose.

I feel lost.

I feel traumatised not being in a classroom with desks and chairs and books and lecturers/teachers around me.

If you ask my best friends, they will definitely say that i adore school.

To the point that one of them said that i was so revolting cos i was a teacher's pet.

Haha.

It definitely carried on all the way till uni.

Can't help it if i have the people skills to win them over do i? *hahahahaha*

Still, i don't seem to be winning people over right now.

Which is defnitely making me one very frustrated woman.


Fin.

Inconsolable.


That's how i feel right now.

If u manage to get hear the song (yes, it is the BSB).

I'm still not over them if you're wondering.


Why inconsolable?

Just because of all the things that have happened of late.

Is it a sign of permanence?

And the irritability recently, has gone through the roof.

Stop asking THE question.

Ask me something else.

I'm not about to be made a fool AGAIN.

Not so soon anyway.


Ramadhan is here again.

Wow. A complete turn around compared to last year.

And we're back to square one.

My whole life seems to be about repetition.

The way i see it: its like a bad record that keeps on playing.

The screeching tones and melody that jars all the memories of past.

Forgive my incoherent ramblings of a lost soul.


Missing the ramadhan & iftars under the blue tiled roofs...


Fin.

Delayed

Sorry for the long absence. Its just been crazy and tiring.

A lot of unexpected things happened last week.
With one of them being me going back to singapore only on a thursday on an executive coach
(which cost me a friggin' RM60)

Well its not so bad considering i got to sleep all the way from KL to Yong Peng. That's like more than a 3 hr nap.

So really.
I'm not complaining.

Save for the fact the the weather was extreme.

It was scorching hot one minute then pouring like it never rained for months.

So how was the convocation like you ask?

It was awesome with a capital A!

I'll just let the rest of the pics do the talking for me.

Enjoy!

Me & my singaporean mates

zafirah & me.
hey! we did it girl!

thanks for all the times u let me bunk at your place during exams! :D
love u suli! <3

me & my chuffed parents

'cos im always going to be daddy's girl! :D

this is becos adam took the best pic so it deserves to go here, hehe.

I daresay that this is the proudest moment in my life!

All the tears and the slogging and the commuting.

It was all worth it.

It wouldn't be complete without my supportive grandparents that have seen me through my dengue fever, my food poisoning and fever moments.

Thankfully they saw me through all those times. I wouldn't have gotten through it were it not for them.

And of course my rascal of a brother. For always making "my-blood-go-upstairs".

Hohoho.

Anyway, most of my pics will go up on my multiply soon. So keep reading yeah.

For all the times that i thought i wouldn't survive.

Thank you Allah for blessing me with the best parents ever.

Amin.

Fin.

What Have We Here?

My thoughts just meandered their way here...

Fin.

4 more days...


Its 4 days till i leave for KL.

For a break between the tuition-ing.

Thank God.

Speaking of tuition, i received my payment on thursday and proceeded to put the money into the bank account.

And that particular night, the depositing machine decided to swallow up my money. The machine read: Transaction Error. Your money has been kept in the machine for safety purposes.

Bah.

Yes. And i had to call the bank to find out where my money went.

The customer service officer told me that this unfortunate incident that i had placed myself in was to be put in investigation.

But all is well now.

I got an sms frm the bank saying that they credited the money back into my account already. Thank God.

So? Shall i splurge on that pretty tan brown leather bag i saw at Ink at J8?

Decisions, decisions hehe.

The past week has actually been rather kind.

With the exception of the unfortunate incident with the depositing machine on thursday that is.

I bumped into Qhuzaimah at CausewayPoint on wednesday and she invited me to join her and seri for dinner at Pizza Hut! It was a special treat from her. :D

Thank You Zaimah!

Then yesterday, i had an impromptu dinner with zak, azimah and hafiz.

We even played some games.

That was the icing on the cake.

From "The first thing that i'm thinking of" to Fuzzy Wuzzy and BangBang.

I had no doubt that we were the loudest lot of people at TehTarik last night.

I can't wait for our 1st September date!

You guys always make me smile.

That's why people say that "Old is Gold"

One of the few people that know how to really make me laugh and unwind.

Thanks guys.


The tears have subsided, finally.

But im sure that it was just PMS and not me.


Fin.

Happy 42nd Birthday!


I miss you guys!

U know who you are! :D

I think its all the reminiscing of all the National Day's that i've missed over the past 3 years.

I still remember the Home Away From Home program we had during my time as EXCO.

That gorgeous cake. :D

Suli, stay tough okay? If i can go through a lot of heartache and pain the last sem, im pretty confident that u can make it through with flying colours too.

Take a look at this site. I'm somewhere in the front row.

On another note, I love my AI peeps too!

You guys still rock my socks lah!

Thanks Sree for sending me all the way back to my block, i was absolutely touched!

It still goes to show that there are still nice guys around.

And also to my dear Aisyah Spec, CONGRATS! I'm so happy for u!


Salam manis to all my friends at KL...another 2 weeks to go till i see u all.


Fin.

Pitstopp-ed

I 've not blogged so long that i might have forgotten how to.

The point is,

I'm just too lazy to switch on the laptop OR i simply haven't got the energy to blog.

But then today is a special day.

Its special cos i met up with the babes (and one guy) haha.

We went to Pitstop cafe and had the BESTest time EVER.

Trust me when i say that it was the bestest time ever.

I laffed till tears streamed out of my eyes and even my head throbbed after laffing SO MUCH.

Our source of entertainment,

mindless card games that had us screaming like banshees and fingers that got hurt by pressing a bell.

And i spilled my drink.

That's how rowdy it got.

We played SmartAss (and i mean that quite literally), Ugly Dollie (or was it doll), some counting game where we had to match the same fruits till the number 5 and some sound making game.

Oh. my. God.

It was so hilarious!

I can't believe how much fun we had!

Azimah was really really funny.

Whenever i keep replaying that scene in my head i just want to burst out laffing.

I wished that we had actually recorded the whole session.

*grinning like an insane idiot*

Mindless games i like.

We've already planned to make another outing to Pitstop soon. InsyaAllah.

To all my UIA frens, lets go when u're having your mid-term break.

You will definitely enjoy the atmosphere!

To my girls (and Hafiz): I loved the time we spent together! Thank God for friends like you! It really makes my day and sends all the dark clouds away.

Initially earlier this week, i was feeling really depressed and i was crying till i fell asleep.

Feelings of worthlessness and unworthiness seemed to just creep back into me.

Thankfully, the clouds have lifted.

Thank you to ALL my friends.

Thanks Nora kerana melayankan i last night! :D I miss our late night chats and gossip!

I hope next wednesday will materialise, cos i really would love to meet the AI crew, Devilic Angels and the rest.

7 years on and im already reminiscing.

Belum lagi 10 tahun grad dari sec sch.

Anyway, i should go to bed now.

Diana's wedding tomorrow...

That's gonna be another AI reunion in itself.

Not bad for a more-than-a-week-long hiatus.

Till then.


Fin.

Whoever YOU are...


I know your heart was in the the right place but it didn't have to go so far as to leave him a comment or a message.

Especially on Friendster.

It was chivalrous but it kinda backfired.

Cos right now, im at the receiving end.


And YOU who have been so unkind in words, if YOU were so unhappy with what was said,

couldn't YOU have msged him YOURSELF and settle with him.

Why make me out to be the culprit?

Sorry, i forgot. You don't know how to work Friendster.

My bad.


Fin.

Mirror mirror on the Wall.


It has been a very LONG and trying week.

Least of all the trip that i took to KL.

I made it in one piece, although i was worried about my safety.

But alhamdullillah i reached UIA close to 6.30pm on wednesday and even managed to hit the pasar malam once more.

I went boggle eyed at all the DVDs.

I bought Transformers, License to Wed, Ocean's 13, 300, and of course Fantastic Four.

I didn't even wait to get home to watch the dvds.

The moment i settled into Suli's room, we flipped open her swanky laptop and watched License to Wed together with Za.

The clearance went very smoothly. Very unexpected. but im glad that it was over quickly.

Thanks to all my mates especially Suli and Dayah for putting me up in your rooms. Much appreciated.

At this point i can't wait to convo!

I mean it is the highlight of the whole journey of receiving your degree.

Wearing the gown...*unfortunately UIA has got not mortarboard. im kinda bummed*

I'm having a rush akin to a sugar high just by talking about it. :D

Anyway, im not bummed out about the whole issue that got me down the whole of last weekend.

I'm over it.

I mean if he's ready to move on then so be it.

If it really makes him happy, then i'll just be glad for him. *even if it kills me to say it*

Well then, whats with the title to today's post?

It's got to do with the mirror in my bathroom.

One of the clips decided to give way after 10 years of dutiful service.

So now, there isn't a mirror in the bathroom.

Which really strikes me as weird.

All you see on the wall is the wall behind which the mirror used to be placed.

I mean a bathroom MUST have a mirror!

Okay i can see some pple trying to make sense of what i just typed above. Haha.

Anyway, i would like to wish a certain Netty Ryanie Kamaruzaman, Selamat Pengantin Baru!You look gorgeous (as always!)

It was great being there at your wedding. The decor was great and the food was MARVELLOUS *even though i didn't get to try them all. but just looking at it already made my mouth water.*

It was nice to see a lot of old faces.

The ones from secondary school.

I never thought that we'd all grow up.

It seems only like yesterday that we were in school, attending the classes and sitting for the exams.

And one by one you're all getting married.

Its like one BIG wake up call after another.

In two weeks time Diana is getting married. And in October, Eliza.

Geez...korang semua pakat ke nak kawen tahun ni? Hehe

Like i said to Huda earlier today, i like that warm fuzzy feeling in my tummy.

Weddings I like!

In 2 weeks time, the 3 musketeers unite! Thank God.

For a moment it felt a bit weird NOT having Rock around.

Anyhow, its time for bed and im pooped!


Fin.

This Sux.

I've been moping the past few days.

I don't know why.

Maybe its the PMS coupled with the SURPRISE that i found out on saturday.

I've been extremely moody and grumpy.

I guess the trip to KL tomorrow is coming at an apt time.

In the mean time, i'm mulling over tomorrow's interview...

*what to wear? what to say?*

Fin.

The Ego Takes A Bruise.


I've been replaced.


And it HURTS like hell.


Help...


Fin.

Procrastinate(-ion)


Since i've started to tutor, ive been pretty LAAAAZZZYYYYY.

But pls dun get me wrong hor.

I've done nothing other than housework.

And that itself just saps SO much energy.


-im starting to sound very much like a desperate housewife-


hey but everything's good. alhamdullillah.

my name is officially on the graduates list! *yeay-ness*

and i'll probably be heading over to KL next week to do my clearance.

plus i'll have my babe Azimah with me.

*Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee* shopping with Zimah will be crazy ;) kewl

The results didn't get me jumping up and down with joy.

But alhamdullillah i've passed. With a respectable grade.

Anyway, im gonna get off the pc now cos i have to get ready for tuition later in the evening.

-I'm missing you guys! Boo hoo...no more teh ais :(


Fin.

Hullo? Anybody there?

I know i havent been updating much. I've been busy. Yes...amidst all the chores.

I haven't really been watching tv. Only on weeknights do i get to catch up with my tv shows.

In the daytime its all chores.

Today has proved that i am kinda getting mixed up with all my schedules.

I've successfully gotten 2 tuition assignments and alhamdullillah, they're both in the north area (both ONE bus ride, save on my transport money hurhur)

I started on tuesday and i had another tuition session yesterday.

I THOUGHT i had another tuition session today in yishun.

I even ironed out all my clothes and my tudung and about 25 minutes ago, i checked my calendar and LO & BEHOLD

No tuition today.

Crap.

Oh well...

Back to watching Emil Emilda on youtube.

This and other pictures can be found

here.

the 3 lovely ladies *grins*

selamat "mengangkat sumpah" girls hehehe...

Fin.

Tagged.


Because everyone else seems to not want to "halo" me, i guess this is for the best.

People, pls scroll down the sidebar to make use of my tagboard okay??

So what have i been up to this past week.

I didn't really leave the house.

Although i did go to the pasar malam next to the yishun mrt station.

*i had a serious hankering for vadai* (p/s: it was REALLY good!)

What i've done this past week was:


1) do laundry (hanging & folding)

have i mentioned how much i HATE folding the clothes?


2) cook

3) clean the house, the room (and pretty much everything else that needs cleaning)

4) watch tv. (although i haven't gotten around to watch tv till it explodes, i'll make gd on my promise *winks to Nora*)

5) missing "someone" like crazy (NO, i haven't gotten over it yet.)

6)look for employment.

7) waiting for "THE" letter.


So yeah, that's most of it.

The good news is, i've already got 2 tuition assignments. *Yeay*

So that means some moolah so that's kinda pleasing to the pocket (esp. with the GST increase this SUNDAY)

Now that my grandmother is here for the weekend, i'll be accompanying her to her hospital and polyclinic appointments.

I can't wait to go to Sentosa next Monday! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!


Fin.


*note to self: I am NOT going to the Christina Concert. Boo hoo. :( *